In Sickness and Health..

Good lord do i hate being sick. I mean i'm already a huge baby as it is, my girlfriend, family and friends can all raise both hands in agreement to that. But man when i'm sick its like completely unbearable. I'm like super needy and i want to be cuddled all the time. I bet when me and Mal live together i'll never get out of bed on the days i'm sick...and i'll make her stay in bed with me and watch The Price is Right while she feeds me Chicken Noodle Soup with a syringe, while holding a damp cloth against my forehead...
Maybe i wont be that dramatic about it, but i wouldnt count on it. I like to play up the sick thing since i've spent way too many sick days alone. Its almost scarring. I know for a fact i'm going to need somebody around me almost every second. My poor kids are going to be so neglected when i'm sick..they'll be like "momma we're hungryyy" and i'll be like "NO! she's mine today!" and then they'll be all "but she needs to fix our bottle and change our diapers" and then i'll realize how horrible of a parent i am because my kids are talking and STILL drinking out of bottles...Im gonna need all the help i can get...
Anyways, so on top of being sick this week, I was also on my period and so along with my ill health and constant neediness, I had a huge rush of female hormones and oh my god was it terrible. I mean seriously...sick and on my period. Seriously. No. Seriously?? I beleive Mother Nature is targeting me because i'm homosexual. She's a bitch.

Ahhh, but my Mallory, now she's a peach. I honestly beleive i have the best girl out there. I know she'll always be with me. She even puts up with me when i'm sick, and thats no piece of cheesecake. I'll never be able to get enough of her love. Even when I feel like the most loved person in the world because of her, i still want more. Her limitless love and genuine care and concern for me is completely intoxicating. I'm gonna marry that girl when i grow up.

So i may have a roomie for a little bit. It looks to me that my good friend caitlin is going to call off her wedding. She's pretty set in that at least. But completely clueless about everything else. I have a feeling he may guilt her into it anyways. He's completely hung up on sex and we all know how convincing gross boys can be when they want something..I dont think she'll give in because of the whole sex thing. I know she couldn't care less about that part, but i think she'll be too afraid of breaking his heart. Which makes perfect sense. Even if your in love with someone or you aren't, its hard to tell someone something that will completely change their life, and possibly devastate them. Ask an oncologist if it gets easier to tell people they have cancer and are dying. Of course not. Its not in us. So its going to be hard for her and i guess what i hate the most for her is all the I Told You So's shes gonna get. I'm pretty sure the first time i hear that i'm going to have to tell that person just what i think of them. Here were all these people who were trying to look out for her and tell her that she should wait, and that she isn't ready, and whatever other kind of crap they were trying to force her to listen to and then when she finally does come around and decides to listen and make the right choice for herself, all these people are only gonna have one thing in their minds: I told you so. And thats fine, they can think it all they want but so help me..if i hear one person say it..i'll completely lose it. She's a very prideful person herself, and i know the thought of everybody gloating that they were right will be just what it takes for her to try and prove them wrong..even if she ends up in a marriage where she's completely miserable. So everybody better watch it. I'm serious.

Car shopping tomorrow. Thank Freaking God.

I should get back to work. I may blog more later.

To be continued..