So i recently got a new car, which makes me super cool. I drive a mid size SUV now. I could be a soccer mom, especially with the dvd player in the back. Too bad, soccer mom wasn't what i wanted to be when i grew up cause i would have it made. Anyways, today during my 45 minute-1hour commute home i've found something that i dont like about my car. Is it all the extra room? no way. Is it that since i got it i haven't been able to afford to fill it up, only stopping every couple days to put 20 bucks in? Nope. Or is it that its made me almost unbearable to ride with since i've become even more of an A/C nazi? Not at all. So what is it? Well since i no longer have my Zune (*sniffle*) i've made CD's just to get me through. And being able to predict what song is going to come next is one of my biggest pet peeves. And today i discovered where the Random button is on my stereo. BUT if i so much as even think of touching a button on the radio the Random setting just shuts off. And man that just ticked me off earlier. I just may trade it in....
Life is crazy. It really really is. People dont just get handed lemons anymore..they get watermelons, and mangos, and papayas. I have respect for people who get handed those watermelons and say something along the lines of "i like watermelons" or "i'm gonna make watermelonade". I like those people. Those that can suck it up and deal with what they're given. And then there are the others...
Those that can't handle anything else but sweet lemonade sipped lightly through a bendy straw. The walking time bombs ready to just completely explode taking as many people possible out with them. Those are the people who would better the world only if they didn't exist. Because life is about playing dodgeball with all the fruit being thrown at you. If you can't handle that, then go take you and your lemonade filled sippy cup elsewhere. I dont understand why i have to be the only voice of wisdom around here. I think its because everyone else is freaking out about having fruit piled up to their ears and i ,on the other hand, am spending my time carving smiley faces in my watermelons and pouring sugar on my grapefruits.
There is this really good book called Killing Yourself to Live and some very wise words from that book have definitely stuck with me. (Its non fiction of course). The author, Chuck, runs into this old guy and the old guy tells him that before you get deeply involved with someone, whether it be as business partners or life partners, you have to piss them off beyond belief. Because when people are extremely ticked thats when their true colors come out. I completely agree with that. I dont beleive in "i didnt really mean it" after arguments. I may act like its all cool, but i dont forget that stuff. I know that everything someone says at those particular heated moments is more the truth than what someone says when they're just peachy.
Speaking of books. I just bought 136 of them. For like $7. That's a friggin steal ey?
I dont know if i've ever mentioned the current status of my figurative heart. But if i have or have not then i'll be more than happy to say that I am definitely taken. I just saw the beautiful girl on Sunday as a matter of fact. That smile, those hips, her touch, her I Want You look...if only she knew that all those things were the cause of everything good in my world..I tell her but i've made a life resolution to always show her anytime i'm with her. She deserves to know that i worship her. She's the only person i could ever see myself being with even when things just plain suck. I'm lucky i got to her first, thats for damn sure. I like knowing i'm her first everything. It makes her just that much more special to me. She's never known hurt and heartbreak in that sense, so why show her what that feels like? She can be the one out of 6 billion who never has to know what a broken heart is. She's completely pure in that sense and i would go through hell and high water to keep it that way. I can't promise to be perfect and not hurt her feelings, but i can promise to never hurt her heart or break her soul. Thats a silent promise i made to her before we even got together. I keep all my promises.
So i've been doing a lot of thinking. And i dont think i want to work at FWSP anymore. I want completely out of this place. Its not stressful or anything but i think i'm young enough to still be able to find what i'm passionate about. I think i even deserve to find it. Not to mention, it doesn't seem like they're up to paying me enough to meet the demands of the rising cost of living. What i make an hour should be minimum wage. In fact it is in some states. Half of what i make every hour barely covers the cost of one gallon of gas. And i just made the idiotic purchase of an SUV. I've decided that i'll stay here at least until i turn 18. Thats when the floodgates of opportunity open right up. 18 is the magic number and i'm only 74 days away from it. Now of course i'll find a job before i just get quit, because even i know that Uncertainty and Car Payment dont mix very well, in fact, REPO is normally the nasty end. I just feel like i'm way behind of the grown up game. It wasn't till about 2 weeks i decided to actually start paying bills. And i still dont even know what i'm going to do as a career. And on top of everything i'll have a live in girlfriend in a year and a family soon after. (!!!!) I need to really get it together. I can't be a mother, or a wife, or a roommate with the "i'm 17 and its party time always" attitude. All i can be with that is someones daughter who never left home. So im gonna put on my determined face (not unlike my constipated face, i'm sure) and grow up. Well after i go to Hurricane Harbor....
As a silly side note: I'm sure if i was paid a penny for every word in this blog. I would have made just about what i make now in an hour.
Her smile is what the birds sing about and what the sun rises for.
Life is crazy. It really really is. People dont just get handed lemons anymore..they get watermelons, and mangos, and papayas. I have respect for people who get handed those watermelons and say something along the lines of "i like watermelons" or "i'm gonna make watermelonade". I like those people. Those that can suck it up and deal with what they're given. And then there are the others...
Those that can't handle anything else but sweet lemonade sipped lightly through a bendy straw. The walking time bombs ready to just completely explode taking as many people possible out with them. Those are the people who would better the world only if they didn't exist. Because life is about playing dodgeball with all the fruit being thrown at you. If you can't handle that, then go take you and your lemonade filled sippy cup elsewhere. I dont understand why i have to be the only voice of wisdom around here. I think its because everyone else is freaking out about having fruit piled up to their ears and i ,on the other hand, am spending my time carving smiley faces in my watermelons and pouring sugar on my grapefruits.
There is this really good book called Killing Yourself to Live and some very wise words from that book have definitely stuck with me. (Its non fiction of course). The author, Chuck, runs into this old guy and the old guy tells him that before you get deeply involved with someone, whether it be as business partners or life partners, you have to piss them off beyond belief. Because when people are extremely ticked thats when their true colors come out. I completely agree with that. I dont beleive in "i didnt really mean it" after arguments. I may act like its all cool, but i dont forget that stuff. I know that everything someone says at those particular heated moments is more the truth than what someone says when they're just peachy.
Speaking of books. I just bought 136 of them. For like $7. That's a friggin steal ey?
I dont know if i've ever mentioned the current status of my figurative heart. But if i have or have not then i'll be more than happy to say that I am definitely taken. I just saw the beautiful girl on Sunday as a matter of fact. That smile, those hips, her touch, her I Want You look...if only she knew that all those things were the cause of everything good in my world..I tell her but i've made a life resolution to always show her anytime i'm with her. She deserves to know that i worship her. She's the only person i could ever see myself being with even when things just plain suck. I'm lucky i got to her first, thats for damn sure. I like knowing i'm her first everything. It makes her just that much more special to me. She's never known hurt and heartbreak in that sense, so why show her what that feels like? She can be the one out of 6 billion who never has to know what a broken heart is. She's completely pure in that sense and i would go through hell and high water to keep it that way. I can't promise to be perfect and not hurt her feelings, but i can promise to never hurt her heart or break her soul. Thats a silent promise i made to her before we even got together. I keep all my promises.
So i've been doing a lot of thinking. And i dont think i want to work at FWSP anymore. I want completely out of this place. Its not stressful or anything but i think i'm young enough to still be able to find what i'm passionate about. I think i even deserve to find it. Not to mention, it doesn't seem like they're up to paying me enough to meet the demands of the rising cost of living. What i make an hour should be minimum wage. In fact it is in some states. Half of what i make every hour barely covers the cost of one gallon of gas. And i just made the idiotic purchase of an SUV. I've decided that i'll stay here at least until i turn 18. Thats when the floodgates of opportunity open right up. 18 is the magic number and i'm only 74 days away from it. Now of course i'll find a job before i just get quit, because even i know that Uncertainty and Car Payment dont mix very well, in fact, REPO is normally the nasty end. I just feel like i'm way behind of the grown up game. It wasn't till about 2 weeks i decided to actually start paying bills. And i still dont even know what i'm going to do as a career. And on top of everything i'll have a live in girlfriend in a year and a family soon after. (!!!!) I need to really get it together. I can't be a mother, or a wife, or a roommate with the "i'm 17 and its party time always" attitude. All i can be with that is someones daughter who never left home. So im gonna put on my determined face (not unlike my constipated face, i'm sure) and grow up. Well after i go to Hurricane Harbor....
As a silly side note: I'm sure if i was paid a penny for every word in this blog. I would have made just about what i make now in an hour.
Her smile is what the birds sing about and what the sun rises for.
1 comment:
I'm so in love with you princess, and i LOVE the last quote. You are the most perfect girl in the world and i want to always show you that. and no matter what job you have or how much money you make, we will always be happy, i'll make sure of that. and so will our babies :D i love you honey bunny bear. and watermelonade sounds good right now ;)
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